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Friday 23 August 2013

My affair with pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo of COZA - by Ese Walter

Keep an open mind as you read this because this is just one side of the story. A lady named Ese Walter (pictured above) is accusing a pastor with the Common Wealth Of Zion Assembly of manipulating her sexually/spiritually. I'm hoping to get the pastor's side of the story later...that's if he's willing to talk. Read Ese's story, which she shared on her blog, below...
This article contains stories that most ‘church people’ don’t want to address. So, if you are one of those living in denial and covering up crap going on in the church, this is where you should stop reading. Thanks for stopping by.
Now, for the rest of us, please sit down and switch on your open mind. I want to talk about something I have kept bottled up inside for longer than necessary. I have also decided to use real names, as my defense for any accusation of slander is justification. I tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but. However, feel free to throw your doubt around but know that I am past the shaming game (where victims of abuse are shot down by blame) I am no longer a victim but a survivor who is sharing her experience to help others caught in same web of abuse, guilt and shame. We only get to live once right? So here, it goes…
I recently came to know this event too was abuse (recently here means about 6 months ago). It has literally been eating me up having to drive by another billboard advertising preachers, or hearing his name, or even trying to ask about the validity of the entire salvation story and whether or not there is a God that truly watches over his people. That being said, I’m just going to say it as it is. This is a recap of my affair with Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo of COZA (Common Wealth Of Zion Assembly) Abuja chapter. This affair I have come to know as a form of abuse as you would see the different elements of abuse very present.

I met Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo many years ago. I was getting bored of the church I was attending and someone suggested COZA. At the time, I had never heard about it. My friend said, go there, I’m sure you would enjoy the word. But he also gave me a strong warning. He said he would advice that I remain a member only and not join the workforce. I agreed. The first time I attended COZA, I felt it was my church and decided I was going to plant my ass there. About eleven months had gone by and I was still attending the services quietly and faithfully. I really did like the church. One day a worker in the church approached me that the senior pastor wanted to see me.

Me? I thought. Why would the senior pastor want to see me? Not the second man but the head nigga in charge? Ok na! I started to think my sin was oozing so bad the pastor could tell I needed Jesus. (Poor old me.) I saw him at the end of the second service (they had two services at the time) and he said to me that he would like me to work with him. I knew I had no intentions of becoming a pastor so I had to ask in what capacity. He said he’d like for me to join a department, preferably the Pastoral Care Unit (PCU).

A few weeks later, against my friend’s advice not to join the workforce, I was a PCU member. All of a sudden, I had some status in church. I was ‘somebody.’ Dress had to be on point, hair, shoes and what not… As workers, we were literally trying to outshine each other or so it seemed. Anyways, I felt like I was a privileged member of an elite circle. Hehehe. (It did feel good though, for the most part.)

About a year after joining the workforce, I was on my way to London for a Masters degree program that would last two years. As was the rule for workers travelling, I wrote to say I would be away for 2 years and Pastor Biodun Fotoyinbo asked that I keep in touch by sending him my number and email when I had settled in London so he “makes sure I continue in the faith” because according to him, people loose their faith when they leave home and he wanted to make sure I didn’t. So, on that note, as soon as I got a phone line in London, I was sure to call ‘my pastor’ to say I arrived safe, had settled in and also gave my phone number.

We had spoken a few times especially when COZA started to stream online. I always watched and would give feedback on quality of production and share a little bit on the challenges I faced settling in a new land. One evening, Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo called me that he was coming to London and needed me to help him make some hotel bookings as the person who was meant to do it couldn’t get it done (this was rather strange as I had never been involved in his travel itinerary) Later that day, he said it had been sorted and my help would not be required but that he would like me to arrange a cab to pick him up from Heathrow. I was happy to help my pastor from Nigeria and even saw it as a privilege. (I would later come to learn that all of this was a calculated attempt to hatch a plan that I suspect was set in motion when I was asked to join the workforce.)
The cab guy was there to get him the next day and when he arrived, he called to ask why I didn’t accompany the cab to pick him up (again, this was strange but I stopped my mind from overanalyzing the situation as I knew I had no business with his visit to London) About two hours later, he called me and said he would like to see me. When I arrived his hotel, I called from the reception but he asked that I come upstairs. I got to the room and tried to stop my mind from thinking why I was going to his room. As he opened the door and invited me in, I had to speak to my heart to stop its palpitations. My better judgment asked me not to go into the room but the kind of reverence I had for Pasotr Biodun Fatoyinbo bordered on fear and I steeped into that room.
“Care for a drink?” Asked Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo.
“No sir,” I said.
“You don’t have to be shy Ese, even if it’s alcohol, feel free and order what you want.” I wasn’t sure I heard my pastor asking me to order alcohol. I imagined it was a test and ignored the voice inside that was saying, “I’d have henny and coke please.” He proceeded to ask how I had been coping in London and if I was a committed member of any church. He also said he thought there was something special about me and wanted to know that I had not strayed from my faith. I really thought he had heard I was doing something I shouldn’t while in London but tried my best to focus on the conversation instead of my straying thoughts. He kept telling me to relax and feel comfortable with talking to him. After a few minutes, he asked that we go to the roof of the hotel as his room was a pent suite and had a connecting door to the roof.

While there, he sat on a reclining chair and asked me to come sit on his laps. This was a bit awkward for me and I froze for a moment as I asked why. He said he had told me to feel free with him and loosen up. I found myself strolling to sit on his laps. At that moment, I felt like a little girl who was experiencing something her mind couldn’t fathom. He asked me to kiss him and all I could think about was seeing him preach on the pulpit back in COZA Abuja, Nigeria, which was my home church. He again said ‘feel free Ese.’ And asked again, that I kiss him.

A few hours later, let’s just say, we were rolling under the sheets. It felt as though my mind had paused. I am not saying I was jazzed, (although it’s possible I was in some trancelike state and didn’t know it but I just was so afraid that I couldn’t say or think otherwise.) That was the beginning of this affair. A sexual affair that went on for a little over a week, DAILY!
I can hear somebody’s mind thinking, ‘well, you weren’t raped.” And I remember a pastor I opened up to when I couldn’t take all the mind games asking if I seduced him. No, I didn’t seduce him and no, I wasn’t raped but I felt trapped in this affair. Come to think of it, how could I have seduced him when I wanted nothing from him? I mean, I was too busy minding my business in London trying to get through with my masters program and I was overly comfortable. And even if I wanted to seduce anyone, it wouldn’t be a married man, not to mention a married pastor.
What I couldn’t reconcile the whole time, was how the same person who preached against the very things we were doing (i.e drinking in pubs, fornicating, committing adultery) was the same person endorsing and encouraging it.

At some point, I got really confused about what Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo and I were doing that I had to ask how he handles it. I will never forget what he said to me. He said and I quote, “I will teach you a level of grace that you don’t understand.” My mind couldn’t fathom that somehow grace was enough covering for not just fornication on my path, adultery on his path and the many lies that was bound to follow what we were doing that was clearly abominable. I somehow dealt with the thoughts and fears that followed on my path. He had said to me that he wanted me to be his girlfriend and he would take me around the world and spoil me with money and things. Somehow, money had never been one of the things that motivated me (I am from a home where all my needs have been adequately met) In all my ‘badness’ through finding myself, I never did things I did for money but more of rebellion against rules and authority.

Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo also said to me that he had a dream where I exposed what was happening to the media. Said it was all over the place and that people were calling me the girl that caused chaos in COZA. He also said I should remember the bible said to “touch not God’s anointed.” I immediately started to rebuke the devil and said I could never do anything like that. I was almost swearing with my entire family as I thought really I had touched God’s anointed by submitting my body to be used. Little did I know at the time that all of these were ways to mess with my mind and even manipulate my thoughts.
Fast-forward a few months later, I was back in Nigeria and my church had become uncomfortable. Anytime I sat in church and listened to Pastor Biodun preach, I felt shame. I finally sent him a message saying I wasn’t comfortable anymore. I was confused and needed to talk about what had happened. He said I should meet him to talk and I did. It was a really weird meeting for me especially when he tried to kiss me at our meeting. I finally realized at this point that he couldn’t help me. I thought God was angry with me and I couldn’t pray so I decided to withdraw completely from COZA. This was the beginning of my mental torture. I couldn’t talk to my family because already, I was the only one attending a different church and somehow my mom never liked the idea. As the days went by I tried to use drinking and smoking to cover up the deep shame and guilt I was battling with. But as soon as the high was over, the thoughts came back and I felt stuck like I couldn’t move forward.
I felt I had to talk to someone and I decided to speak to my then good friend, Ernest Akale but unfortunately for me, Mr. Ernest did not have the capacity to hold what I said to him. He broke down completely the days that followed and I found myself having to pause how I was feeling and what I was struggling with to help my friend be strong. After a while, he withdrew from not just me but his then fiancĂ© and friends. I had to then tell the fiancĂ© what had caused it (she suspected we were having an affair so I had to clear the air) To my surprise she was a lot stronger than her man and told me to suck it up (I’m paraphrasing). She said if she were me, she wouldn’t leave the church but stay to torment Pastor Biodun and collect money from him. Ok! That sounded extreme for me, as my intention was not to blackmail but to heal my broken self. Anyways, I finally found the courage to speak to my then unit head who said he was going to talk to Pastor Biodun but didn’t have the liver to do so. Before long, the story was spreading and naturally getting twisted.
I went to a new church and it seemed like the COZA bug had chased me there. The pastor would always refer to COZA as some example and each time that was done, it seemed like a spear was thrust through my chest. One day, I broke down in the service and started crying uncontrollably, as I couldn’t take another mention of COZA and the pictures it painted in my head.

Very long, boring story cut short, for the last 5 months I gave the whole church thing a big space and break. I wasn’t sure I believed in God. I wasn’t sure I understood what it meant when people said ‘Jesus saves” and I definitely wasn’t sure how to deal with the mental torture that was affecting not just me but my relationships with family and friends. I was very unstable, fearful and worst of all guilty. I got a chance to talk to Pastor Folarin of COZA Lagos Chapter, popularly called Pastor flo about everything. I made an effort to reach out to him because I realized the right thing to do was talk to an elder in the church and seek some sort of remedy to a wrong I believed had been done me.
Instead, Pastor Flo said, Pastor Biodun had confessed to him and they had ‘talked’ about it and somehow that was supposed to be Ok. He asked what it was I wanted coming to talk to him about it when I did, I told him I realized what happened between Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo and I was wrong and not just that I felt abused and manipulated. I also said I thought it was wrong for Pastor Biodun to go on preaching without taking time to deal with his personal character flaws. I said I thought he was danger to all the young women that attended the church. Come to think of it, maybe he meant if I wanted something monetary or material (as someone had suggested when I opened up to her) but the truth is, I never wanted his money (or is it the church member’s money.) All I wanted was to meet with him and have him accept that he misled me, betrayed his wife and the church he pastors. I wasn’t the only lady in COZA who had been a victim of his sexcapades and manipulative patterns but I was the one who could come back after months of struggle with not just my faith but also my affair with him. And I wanted to set things right. I wanted to talk to Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo maybe for closure and I felt like I needed an apology because he played the “touch not my anointed” card to keep me locked in guilt, shame and fear when all along it was a calculated plan and I dare say, it started when he asked me to join the workforce.

Not to mention the audacity to talk about teaching me a level of grace I didn’t understand. I had no intention of understanding a grace that would permit me to go on doing things that were wrong and what’s worse having to carry the burden for almost a year.

Different surprising advises came up in the weeks that followed the rumour making rounds. I was told to hush because Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo had been a cultist in the past and could send people to shut me up. All my so-called friends in COZA withdrew from me and treated me like I had the plague. What was worse was Pastor Flo finally saw my then pastor to ‘talk’ about what had happened with Pastor Biodun and lied that it happened once and was a mistake. My question then became, ‘do these people even care how broken I had become?’ ’do they care about the emotional and spiritual welfare of the people they were pastoring?’ The sad answer was NO. Most of us old members of COZA kept leaving but they couldn’t care less. What was important was to keep growing the church and having more and more cars with stickers that read “More than enough.”  Back then, I always felt horrible when I saw another car drive past me with the sticker. I was breaking, I was struggling but no one could help. All they could do was ask me to hide so Pastor Biodun’s goons don’t hurt me. And then the interesting one was if I had evidence to prove my claim. Let me just say here that, it isn’t a claim, it’s a confession to free me from all of the guilt and shame I have had to live with for no reason at all. (That being said, I have evidence to prove all I have said here, the latest being a 58 minutes recording of my meeting with Pastor Flo a few months back)

This is my confession and I cannot begin to describe how much weight has been lifted off of my shoulders just pouring the truth out about what went down. So, to all my ex COZA friends gossiping about me, get your facts right. To those who said they’d help me deal with the pain but didn’t, I forgive you, I have learnt how to deal with it and I am doing just fine. To those who fear for my safety saying Pastor Biodun would send people to shut me up, I really have gone past fearing for my life. To live is gain and to die is Christ (or how does Paul say it again?) And to the only person who ever supported me through it all, thank you, I am learning to be brave. Please don’t think I am perfect in all of this but in line with living my authentic life and putting all forms of abuse behind me, this is where I press the stop button and stop the bleeding. This is where I break the silence and call the church to stand up for what it has been commissioned to do. If you will not enter the Kingdom, please don’t stop others who are trying to enter.

I still remember when I used to nurse the idea of digging up emails, text messages, hotel billings (as once I used my card to pay for his room when his master card failed to work) to prove there was an affair. It was pathetic. Why for the love of heaven was I trying to dig up evidence? I am satisfied setting the record straight. I am ready for any shaming or bashing that would follow because the truth is, because of what I have suffered and come through, I am really not moved by what people say or think about me anymore. I am a stronger woman and a damn abuse survivor seeking to connect with other victims of abuse to show them how to deal with the shame, hurt and guilt and how to come out stronger. Turning their mess into their message.

I am Ese Walter and I have gone through all forms of abuse from family, boyfriends, my ex pastor and some strangers not to break me, but so I stand and so I qualify to help victims. My scars have qualified me and when all is said and done, I will still be standing. I AM WOMAN, I BEND, I DON’T BREAK!
Cheers to the freaking weekend!!!

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hola said...

Alright as much as I hold no briefs 'yet' for either sides in this controversy,I'd be happy if some logical questions that may help shed more light on these accusations are asked and answered.Having lived in the UK,I understand how astute their business outfits(hotels,shops,banks etc) are to the point of issuing receipt even when you spend as little as £1.Now what has stopped my dear Ese from retrieving the details of the hotel reservation she made for the accused pastor?Now If indeed both parties are considering a legal battle to adress this story,the hotel where the act was carried out will definitely still have a cctv footage of Ese at the reception even till the point of entering the accused's room(that's being done for security purposes nothing more).For her to have come up with this confession she definitely should be ready to go all the way if for nothing's sake @ least that the truth may prevail.Not that I think it's impossible for what she claimed to have happened truly happened,but to exonerate herself and @ least give her story some credibility.That's not enough to bring this pastor down if she's not telling the truth as It'll only make the church stronger.And If the story is indeed true and the pastor is bold enough to confess,repent and do some restitution,that's just another triumph to victory!If not,God will not stop being GOD because of this.
And to those who have been quick to condemn these 2,who has made you judge over another?Have you dealt with the issues in your own lives first?Do you realize God is not a MAN?and can never be mocked.If these 2 settle scores with God in their closet do you not know their names will be written in the book of life without your opinion?Let's not be learners oh!

Anonymous said...

Ese,I'm glad u have set urself free. May God heal u of this awful experience.
To the 'lady'that claims Pastor Bolaji Idowu did same to her,I feel its a bit unfair for u to lay these claims without a proper story or fact.(I'm not saying he's innocent or guilty) but remember he has a family n children (the Idowu's n church members)who look up to him n deserve to be respected.
*A bad egg doesn't ruin a crate. #justsaying

Anonymous said...

Wow... sad... I pray God gives you grace, Ese. I do hope you have set your own records straight. Hope the 'smoking and drinking'is gone. I pray that God gives us all grace "lest after preaching to others we become cast away".

Anonymous said...

Church again?

Unknown said...

coming out to publish this, is just a way to display another level of your stupidity
ON THING Am sure of is that: no MAN(WO-MAN) is permitted to make mockery about THOSE God called Elect!
Ask for the Mercy of God over your life, So that God may reduce His Wrath over you for this story.

May God forgive Us ALL - Amen
Omorinola Niyo.

Concerned Brother said...



You little miserable and shameless miscreant called Ese Walters should be ashamed of yourself. You intentionally went to the pastor with the sole objective to seduced him, actually succeeded in seducing him, over several days gave him overdose of immoral pleasure and after you have thoroughly enjoyed yourself and achieved your objective have now decide to blackmail him. You have allowed yourself to be used by the devil in order to destroy the said pastor, his marriage, and his church. What do you stand to gain if you succeed in achieving your aim? You just have to repent and go back to GOD! May be the pastor made you a promise which he failed to accomplish or may be you expected that he will send his wife away and marry you but it never happened or something of that nature....; but nothing of such should not warrant what you have just done. Or did another pastor or someone else somewhere for some reason send you to bring him down? I still don't clearly understand what motivated you and what you intended to achieve. Think,..think again!!
You have only succeeded in bringing shame upon yourself. As if the your shameful story is not enough, you also added your picture so that everyone will know what an idiot you are.Just imagine what you have done to yourself. What a shame!!!!!!!!!!!!

Unknown said...

publishing such story is just another way of taking your stupidity to the NEXT LEVELS!

ONE thing am very Sure of Is that no MAN(WO-MAN) Tries to ridicules The elect of God, without facing the wrath of God.
Just pray for the mercy of God.

Anonymous said...

Ese, you should be ashamed of yourself!! You are doing your masters right? that suggests to me that you are above 25 at the least. You are not a minor! you took yourself to a married man room (Pastor of no pastor), you got into his bed, and you fucked him.

Now you claim he manipulated you spiritually?? PLEASE! you should keep quiet and go into your prayer room and seek forgiveness.
Stop seeking cheap publicity!!!

Pastor whatever his name is will answer his own to GOD and he too should seek forgiveness.

Anonymous said...

loool all i can say is God forgive us all. I'm a teenager and i see all these adults behaving like babies, lool it is amazing i tell you. It is a full comedy show to me. Ay and boys should retire gan this is enough comedy for me. For Ese, girl trust me you need God in your life. You made a mistake but pls don't make a bigger mistake of brushing Christ aside, trust me he lives. The devil definitely confused you and if don't go back to Christ he would definitely continue to confuse you.

lool to the Pastor still, if this s true. Amazing!!!!

Anonymous said...

i'm not justifying d babes actions...she cld have walked out after he made d first attempt at her...buh d point ere is dat dis pastors r not practicing wah dey preach n r frauds...I for one dont fink COZA is a good church or a church at all(PS..i'm a muslim)..COZA ilorin is fashion ground n d church where most slutty girls attend...dey wear wateva dey want n yhu need to see deir service posters,sort of like a club party's...members shld really re-evaluate their purpose of attending church services...if it's to serve God or have fun...

Peculiar said...

Ese Walter ur lust got u here. u were not manipulated and pls refrain frm using the word abuse bcos u were not abused. ur case is same with most girls around who lust after pastors who they think are cute and have a graceful charisma. u already lost ur defenses and when he asked u for a kiss u couldn't resist him. For Christ sake is ur pastor ur God, what will make u bed another womans' man? i was ones in ur sheos but i didn't fall. i knew d scriptures better and i made him understand. till 2morrow he is still one man of God dat i respect. For crying out loud, men of God are humans with weaknesses like everyone else. But one expects a higher level of discipline frm them bcos of their work with God. But in a situation where they are falling short of what is expected, as believers we ought to be strong enough to help them not to make great mistakes. couldn't u have said no and work away. it seem to me like u had a plan. if not, why will u record ur conversation with him? If he was using some strange powers on u how where u now able to record a thing? Am ashamed of u. what point do u want to prove by writing all this. if u really wanted forgiveness u go to d cross and then to the wife and maybe d elders of the church, confessing and begging for forgiveness. Am sure d pastor is not d first married man u would have slept with bcos u're not bothered about him been a married man. All u talk about is dat he is a pastor like u were out to prove how ungodly some pastors can be. may i say to u dat when God looks, he sees no tittle but the actions and motives. u both defiled urseleves, sinned against God and d pastor's wife. Go and ask God to forgive u. And pls ask d wife to forgive u too. then it will be well with u. As for u pastor run fast to d cross, cry for mercy, drop ur titles and be naked b4 d throne of mercy. pastor sir, beg ur wife for forgiveness bcos u have sinned more against her. Ma, pls stand by ur husband, pray for him and ask God to help him overcome this weakness. pls forgive him if it's true he did all these. u're to stand and ensure his soul is rescued from destruction. But if he didn't be sure dat God will vindicate him. pls pastor don't try to explain anything to d public if it's true or not. reconcile urself with God, ur wife and d congregation God has given u to Shepherd. Equally apologize to Ese if it's true what she said happened bcos u were supposed to shepherd her and help her grow in d lord. May God have mercy on us all.

Anonymous said...

Madam Ese Walter, you were not ABUSED you an adult who had consentual sex with an adult like you, so please stop with the pity party. Next time don't go to married men's hotel rooms and if you still decide in your foolishness to, have some respect for yourself and close your damned legs.

Sade Thomas said...

Ese walter! You are just a hypocrite!! Shamelessly telling the world how ignorant and dumb u are!! Smh!! Wat publicity are u tryn 2 gain from slandering sm1's name?? How much were u paid for this cos cheap sluts like you dnt deserve any mercy at all!!! I pity for you. Going arund begging and seeking for pity!! Did dey tie ur leg 2 his room? When u requested for henny n coke wat did u think u were gettg into? When u magically find ur slutty self into his bed what consumed you??? Even d lowest man in d workforce won't even date you and you r here seeking for publicity. I pity ur kind!! Idiot! Mumu of the highest order! Take several seats cos this karma is waiting for you!
Linda u better post this! This ese or wateva her name is need 2 be bitch-slapped with a lawsuit! - For the person who wrote this message SHAME ON YOU AND SHOWS THAT YOU TO ARE A FOLLOWER OF FAKE PASTOR'S!!!! What in your right mind would think that she would go through all this just so she can gain what. It is you that is the FOOL and should be bitch slapped!!! I pray that God opens your eyes and see that this PASTOR should be removed from his post. Who this story be different if she was under age?? Who you have still defended the Pastor in question? But once again you have proven how ignorant Christians can be. Pastors can do no wrong abi?? It is people like you that close your eyes when you see wrong and continues to follow them because your looking for 'Miracle Water' which you paid N1000 for. I pray you wake up and smell the coffee because most of these so called pastors that are going around doing this are going to Hell and God will Judge very well. That is a fact, if i had my way i would ensure he steps down from his post as he has taken advantage of his calling and of his people. Question did you write this because you are chopping the offering money?

Anonymous said...

Ese walter! You are just a hypocrite!! Shamelessly telling the world how ignorant and dumb u are!! Smh!! Wat publicity are u tryn 2 gain from slandering sm1's name?? How much were u paid for this cos cheap sluts like you dnt deserve any mercy at all!!! I pity for you. Going arund begging and seeking for pity!! Did dey tie ur leg 2 his room? When u requested for henny n coke wat did u think u were gettg into? When u magically find ur slutty self into his bed what consumed you??? Even d lowest man in d workforce won't even date you and you r here seeking for publicity. I pity ur kind!! Idiot! Mumu of the highest order! Take several seats cos this karma is waiting for you!
Linda u better post this! This ese or wateva her name is need 2 be bitch-slapped with a lawsuit! - For the person who wrote this message SHAME ON YOU AND SHOWS THAT YOU TO ARE A FOLLOWER OF FAKE PASTOR'S!!!! What in your right mind would think that she would go through all this just so she can gain what. It is you that is the FOOL and should be bitch slapped!!! I pray that God opens your eyes and see that this PASTOR should be removed from his post. Who this story be different if she was under age?? Who you have still defended the Pastor in question? But once again you have proven how ignorant Christians can be. Pastors can do no wrong abi?? It is people like you that close your eyes when you see wrong and continues to follow them because your looking for 'Miracle Water' which you paid N1000 for. I pray you wake up and smell the coffee because most of these so called pastors that are going around doing this are going to Hell and God will Judge very well. That is a fact, if i had my way i would ensure he steps down from his post as he has taken advantage of his calling and of his people. Question did you write this because you are chopping the offering money?

Anonymous said...

If this story is true, I really feel sorry for her, but my advise to her is that since she has admitted that a sin was committed, she should just ask God for forgiveness and reconcile with Him. She should distance herself from this negative publicity becos it wont help her to recover. Leave the pastor for God to deal with. The important thing is that she should not loose her soul, becos people will always wrong you and wont apologise, so move on with God, God loves you no matter what, He has forgiven worse.

Anonymous said...

I don't believe you dear.. Show us evidence.. And if you didn't want him, why did u end up in his bed.. Abeg abeg.
Shot ur mouth..

GREEN said...

LET HE THAT IS WITHOUT SIN BE THE FIRST TO CAST THE FIRST STONE. we all forgot to know that Pastor Abiodun is human with flesh and blood, he is not God and therefore cannot be PERFECT. MIss Ese, if i were you, i will go on my knees and pray for Pastor Biodun than to sell him in public. What you did has broken a home and alot of people heart. You were not lored or raped, You willingly accepted it. i blamed you. People blame Pastor Biodun cos he is pastor forgeting he is a human being. Please stop washing yur linea in public all in the name of confession.

PLEASE LINDA PUBLISH THIS COS I WANT ESE TO READ IT.

GREEN said...

LET HE THAT IS WITHOUT SIN BE THE FIRST TO CAST THE FIRST STONE. we all forgot to know that Pastor Abiodun is human with flesh and blood, he is not God and therefore cannot be PERFECT. MIss Ese, if i were you, i will go on my knees and pray for Pastor Biodun than to sell him in public. What you did has broken a home and alot of people heart. You were not lored or raped, You willingly accepted it. i blamed you. People blame Pastor Biodun cos he is pastor forgeting he is a human being. Please stop washing yur linea in public all in the name of confession.

PLEASE LINDA PUBLISH THIS COS I WANT ESE TO READ IT.

Anonymous said...

Such an interestin story. al'o'u insultin her are on ur own, she'hs accepted dat she did rong, ok.. this myt be a way of finally clearin her conscience. stupid church members sayn she's a hoe and all, I see y'all hoe-ly peeps o.. Ur pastor is a sex maniac. deal with it peeps. stop siding him dis bad biko. fucked up people .

Anonymous said...

It is a so unfortunate how a country like ours dont have measures in place for abuse victims like Ese other than judging her. That is the same reason why so many others have kept mute in this abuse slavery/bondage. she did not have to be raped to call it abuse. she was abused and brain washed and left wounded!!! she was hurt by the one she honored, respectd, trusted and looked up to|! many sadly are in this same situation, by so called pastors who scare them tokeep quiet. some of their devoted or faithful associates make matters worse by covering and endorsing this kind of shameful acts. It is time for you to speak up if in this situation and free your self from emotional torture, shame, guilt and move on!it would have been better if the pastor and associates appealed and help Ese and the other girls heal but wrong handling blew it all up. its such a shame!

Anonymous said...

if this is true, girl you know deep inside you always wanted to f@#ck him and when you got the chance to you....however we didnt know about it so ill say f@#ck that shit about been guilty and just say this is for attention...as for pastor if youre gonna be a sexual devil do it outside the church, far outside the church. and if its not real this girls got good writing skills, and pastor should come out with proof and not just words, i mean the hotel room should have camera feed of who went to his room and what time they left, if non of this happened then the time she spent with him shouldnt have been long or lasted a week.

Anonymous said...

Ese I believe u and commend u for coming out with ur story. I don't see why we always advise victims to suck it up and keep quiet and allow these perpetrators get away and continue with all sorts. Don't worry dear people will abuse and insult u. Forget all that. U have done the right thing. Just keep it faith and strength.

Anonymous said...

p.s to all those who are looking at this as if he is sinless remember he is as much flesh as you....even david was a sexual deviant that even killed just to have his neighbours wife...yet in church you all still wanna dance like david danced.....open your eyes and minds and be thankfull it wasnt your wife or daughter, or sister that wrote this.

Anonymous said...

My sister was almost a victim. God is a very patient God, all I can say. I believed my sister cos she recorded everything that transpired between her nd the very popular and anointed man of God, God forbid me to mention the name. Always asking her to meet him up at hotels whenever he went somewhere to minister, my sis planned to set him up but we told her judgement is of God. O ga o. Believe Ese or not, shit do happen in our so called churches that u can't believe or comprehend.

Amanda Austins said...

Linda, does it mean that all these ladies calling this Ese girl names have not been approached by a pastor or a General Overseer (as they call themselves) of a church.

Ha! Some of us don see these things scatter. One General Overseer that got my number when attended his church, kept calling to invite me to his house. He got pissed off when I continued to decline and blurted out that girls in his church "jump" at this kind of opportunity.

How did he get my number? I was invited to his church by my brother who told me to bring my tithe because there was going to be a special prayer by the Overseer for people that brought their tithe.

During the service, as in when it was time for the Tither's Special Prayer, he asked everybody to put the tithe in an envelop and write one's name,the Company he/she works for and phone number.

We were all called out to the altar and after the prayer, he asked all of us to come and give our envelops to him by hand. That was how he started calling me incessantly.

That is just one experience. There are two others but let me leave it at this. I just want to tell you guys that these things happen. Sometimes, one just decide to let sleeping dogs lie...but they cannot deceive me anymore.

Post my comment o!

Anonymous said...

Whether this story is true or not. Lets learn the lessons and move on. Let the Christians lift up the church and men of God in prayers. Anybody can fall into temptation, it is what you do afterwards that matters. Ese I'm not sure you reported this to clear your conscience cause if you did have one you would not post this story and play the victim. You could have helped the pastor by saying NO!! when he was falling, but you did not, you played along all through. Men of God have weak moments that is why co-workers should stand for them at this time. Pastor Biodun, I am not sure what went down, but if this is true and God/your wife have forgiven you, who are we to judge?? Ese forgive yourself and move on. As for the body of Christ out there, this is a storm and it shall passs.

Anonymous said...

Omg. This same shit happened to me too but God will be the judge.. I know ppl find it hard to believe these kind of stories when it comes to MOG's but o ye Olorun.

Unknown said...

God'll forgive u both...no matter how heinous ur crimes/sin...that's d grace he's talking about.

Shall we continue in sin that grace may abound?GOD FORBID!!!He shld be axed

Anonymous said...

ok time for me comment.dear Ese Walter,you should blame daddy for all this.it is the sins of the father that.what goes around,comes around.karma is nothing but a bitch.your father CP Walter Rugbere is a chan womanizer,sleeping with people daughters.how person no go sleep with him own?abeg make i hear word.who doesnt knw your dad and unibuja girls.kpsheww.make papa sef feel as eeh dey be.married man don sleep with you too,nahim be say tomrw your husband go sleep with younger girls too.its a circle.what goes around must surely come around.lol.the sins of the father is following u.go mountain on fire and fast biko

Anonymous said...

wise word!!!!!

Anonymous said...

VERY LONG AND INTERESTING STORY, BUT LIKE I SAID I DON'T GIVE TWO FLYING HOOTS ABOUT THE PASTOR'S ACTS: I'M SURE GOD WILL DEAL WITH HIM IN APPROPRIATE WAYS IN HIS TIME. THE PROBLEM WITH A LOT OF PEOPLE IN CHURCHES IS THAT THEY NEVER STUDY TO SHOW THEMSELVES APPROVED, ALL THEY DO IS GO TO CHURCH AS A PLACE WHERE THEY CAN BE NOTICED, SHOW OFF AND DISPLAY THEIR LATEST GEAR.IMAGINE THIS GIRL COULD NOT EVEN QUOTE A SIMPLE SCRIPTURE RIGHT(AND COULD NOT EVEN BOTHER TO CROSS CHECK IT)."To live is gain and to die is Christ (or how does Paul say it again?)THE BIBLE SAYS IN PHILLIPIANS 1:21 "TO LIVE IS CHRIST AND TO DIE IS GAIN" WHAT A SHAME...THIS IS THE PROBLEM WITH PEOPLE SWITCHING FROM CHURCH TO CHURCH LOOKING FOR SELF GRATIFICATION WITHOUT STUDYING THE BIBLE TO TEST ALL SPIRITS, CHURCHES ARE LIKE MARKETS THESE DAYS WITH A LOT OF WARES ON DISPLAY....PEOPLE, PRODUCTS, GOOD AND BAD.OPEN YOUR EYES AND LISTEN WITH YOUR EARS,THE WORD OF GOD IS NOT HIDDEN...IT IS OPEN FOR ALL TO SEE, WE THANK GOD THAT HE HAS MADE IT AVAILABLE TO INFANTS AND SUCKLINGS...A WORD IS ENOUGH FOR THE WISE. The gremlin has spoken!

Anonymous said...

Abegi! Make we hear word. You be virgin? You been dey fuck tey tey, why dis one come be story? How dis fornication come different from other 'fornications' you been dey commit. Park well, jor.

Anonymous said...

This is a 2way thing its either its true or not, lets not forget that the Devil will do anything to destroy Gods work especially now that coza is growing really fast, so honestly if Ese is lying, then she's gonna face the wrath of God, and if the pastor isn't innocent either he also will face Gods wrath.I just pray, the truth will be revealed soon! so if either Ese or the Pastor is innocent, at lest that will clear one of their names from this bad aura!

Anonymous said...

Ese, if this is true, whatever you do, stick with God. everything will make sense when you listen to Him. Remember Psalm 91, those who dwell in the secret place of the most high shall abide under the shadow of the almighty and shall say of the Lord he is my strength and my refuge. I will trust in him.

You first expression of trust is to stick with God, he is all you need. Forgive yourself because you have been forgiven, move on with your life, deepen your relationship with Him. he loves you like no man can ever! I am a witness girl! I am a witness.

Anonymous said...

Ese! chai! i know this babe ooo.small world.eyah.if nah true story be this the that means this story is supposed to teach ppl alot.its just unfortunate she is a victim fa.this girls Father is always fucking peoples daughter(runs girls}then pay them plenty money in abuja.oya ooo.oga Walter Rugbere i told that one day person go fuck ur own daughter too abi.married man don chop that thing wey u dey enjoy for ppl pikin.your daughter and chidinma otu {your mistress} look alike sef.hehehehe.men and women out there.in this life ,what ever you do to someone,dem go do u back.Ese i hope say your papa don hear dis gist.cause he is the true cause of ur pain.the bigest bitch ever is kama.i laugh in spanish.

Anonymous said...

biodun has been in this sleeping with girls around business for years!! He knows exactly what he is doing. that is not the same as falling into sin. That is his way of life and EVERYONE really close to him know this. His associates and family are in the KNOW!So stop excusing him. he has messed up so many girls lives who have not been able to come out! he doesnt have to be seduced. he calculates smartly how to sleep with these girls from day 1 and intelligently hatches his plan. They never know what hes initially up to but because hes a very smooth talker, claiming genuine interest, they are manipulated and before they know it, get involved until they run away from the church out of shame, guilt or when he moves on to another and they get dumped! The funny thing is that he makes them think they are the only ones he s seeing at that time making them feel special until they see he is nothing but a sex maniac and get dissappointed. He is a master and don at this game! that is his lifestyle when at home or abroad! He cannot deny that things have now come out. SOOO many of the girls have been taken advantage of by him and are waiting for him to LIE! As for you his associates, you know the truth and better stop covering a lie so it doesnt happen to your daughters too!! thank God the truth is finally out just like some other things he is involved in will soon be out!!!! watch out for part two!

Mrs Charming said...

it is only in GOD's army that we shoot our wounded generals. u ppl think its about this ese girl and the pastor? it is way beyond that. the devil's main agenda is to destroy the shepherd and scatter the sheep and we as 'Christians' are actually helping him. he is a MAN of GOD. notice the man before the GOD. if Dangote slept with a married woman 2mo will it be news? Pst Biodun is a man of GOD and in this controversy we are not to judge if u ve ever sinned because GOD the Righteous judge asks in His word " Who are you to judge another man's servant.. Rms 14:4"

Anonymous said...

I neva doubted dis story for once....tins lyk dis happen everytime in churches...pple questioning her y she had sex wit him for a straight week,its possible she felt guity n she thought of d fact she has started having sex wit him she shd jst continue,I knw dat feeling....God shd forgive us!

Anonymous said...

Ese, i took ur father like my dad after my dad died. He almost fucked my brains out. Izit d abortions? Thank God he saw me tru schl atleast he paid till masters level...i had to work hard in bed for all dese. Am grateful to him but i hate him. U r ripping the seeds he planted. Bilota

Unknown said...

Abi oh,they re busy looking hot n miracle.church won't save u. Repent n be born agin, Jesus is coming soon! Leave miracle alone n seek ye the kingdom of God n others things like miracle will be added unto you! Please remember not to judge so u won't be judged . God richly bless u guy.xxx

Anonymous said...

I am a student of the school of life and a part of the thinking breed, i reason out ideologies,systems,patterns and the way of life of people and societies to adduce and deduce theorems and conclusion ...i have read all sorts of comments posted and being posted since this revealing episode began and i must say that, only one thing has been RIGHT,CONSISTENT and ARGUABLY TRUE in it all and that is ESE WALTER!!!
She has herself,name,identity,story,pictures and family put out there for public scrutiny and unwholesome attack and comments from those who believe her story and vast majority who don't ..question is for what? some say for fame,others say to destroy the clergy but whatever the reason is,one thing remains unequivocally clear,Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo has declined from rebutting her story but instead is playing a mind game encapsulated in MANIPULATION to still further deceive his already deceived congregation.
He did it and can't come to accept it cos he knows the consequences of such acceptance. His pride won't let him do so and seeing he has a blossoming enterprise camouflaged as a church,he'd rather use the CONSPIRACY OF SILENCE to deal with the matter. with a hope in no time,it would be forgotten as the news stop making the rounds. Error of such is that, the truth will always come out either with Ese Walter's story now or someone else's later on.
He unintelligently contradicted himself by himself with everything he said on Sunday when he said,God told him not to speak but yet he was consulting to come up with a robust reply" that in itself is, DECEIT,FALSEHOOD AND MANIPULATION! He insulted and undermined the intelligence of everyone who was in that service and took them all for fools..it was insolence and arrogance from Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo to be making mention of 'people from 1st world(wonder what that means), Government officials,SSS, Church Land and all the brouhaha he did mention as a reason to evade an accusation as grave as that.That was intimidation and manipulation again in display. seems to me he has mastered these acts and has always gotten away easily after such sexual atrocities . little wonder he had the audacity to still preach GOD'S WORD when he should have swallowed the humble pie and be accountable to the people whose trust he had broken by rebutting the allegations. Instead we saw a man who was putting up a show, a facade to cover for his misdeeds. His inability to rightly articulate his speech throughout the unsavory ,self empathized sermon, gave him out so easily.
Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo MUST be held accountable,investigated for this and every other sexual allegations by the CHRISTIAN BODY or ORGANIZATION In charge so as stop this stigma of abuse of power in our churches.
PASTOR BIODUN owes The people,The Church and his congregation that is those who haven't lost their reasoning and are blind followers of him, a REBUTTAL OR A CONFESSION"
you can fool some people sometimes, but you can't fool all of the people all the time!

Anonymous said...

I am a student of the school of life and a part of the thinking breed, i reason out ideologies,systems,patterns and the way of life of people and societies to adduce and deduce theorems and conclusion ...i have read all sorts of comments posted and being posted since this revealing episode began and i must say that, only one thing has been RIGHT,CONSISTENT and ARGUABLY TRUE in it all and that is ESE WALTER!!!
She has herself,name,identity,story,pictures and family put out there for public scrutiny and unwholesome attack and comments from those who believe her story and vast majority who don't ..question is for what? some say for fame,others say to destroy the clergy but whatever the reason is,one thing remains unequivocally clear,Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo has declined from rebutting her story but instead is playing a mind game encapsulated in MANIPULATION to still further deceive his already deceived congregation.
He did it and can't come to accept it cos he knows the consequences of such acceptance. His pride won't let him do so and seeing he has a blossoming enterprise camouflaged as a church,he'd rather use the CONSPIRACY OF SILENCE to deal with the matter. with a hope in no time,it would be forgotten as the news stop making the rounds. Error of such is that, the truth will always come out either with Ese Walter's story now or someone else's later on.
He unintelligently contradicted himself by himself with everything he said on Sunday when he said,God told him not to speak but yet he was consulting to come up with a robust reply" that in itself is, DECEIT,FALSEHOOD AND MANIPULATION! He insulted and undermined the intelligence of everyone who was in that service and took them all for fools..it was insolence and arrogance from Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo to be making mention of 'people from 1st world(wonder what that means), Government officials,SSS, Church Land and all the brouhaha he did mention as a reason to evade an accusation as grave as that.That was intimidation and manipulation again in display. seems to me he has mastered these acts and has always gotten away easily after such sexual atrocities . little wonder he had the audacity to still preach GOD'S WORD when he should have swallowed the humble pie and be accountable to the people whose trust he had broken by rebutting the allegations. Instead we saw a man who was putting up a show, a facade to cover for his misdeeds. His inability to rightly articulate his speech throughout the unsavory ,self empathized sermon, gave him out so easily.
Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo MUST be held accountable,investigated for this and every other sexual allegations by the CHRISTIAN BODY or ORGANIZATION In charge so as stop this stigma of abuse of power in our churches.
PASTOR BIODUN owes The people,The Church and his congregation that is those who haven't lost their reasoning and are blind followers of him, a REBUTTAL OR A CONFESSION"
you can fool some people sometimes, but you can't fool all of the people all the time!

Anonymous said...

What's our business with his wife's look? I don't know why some of us are so foul mouthed...Weldon Ese, coming out ain't easy.

Anonymous said...

Ese my dear and my name sake, I know and understand exactly how you felt or feel.....I have been a victim of exactly what happened to you (but not with this pastor in question sha). In my case, the pastor in question is even a husband to my aunt and mine started at an early age of 17 and lasted for years. And in my case am still carrying the guilt and praying to God to completely forgive me and remove such guilt from me. The truth is no one can really help u (even a confession to the media won't take the guilt away) except God, and it takes time. Don't let this discourage you from serving God or wanting to live right with him (cos as for me I got really discouraged and sometimes i still feel discouraged and distrusting about pastors). The truth be told dear, it has really changed me (as per broken me inside). But i believe its a trick of the devil to still my focus away from God. Everyday I pray to God to strengthen me more and more to never even think about it for 1 min. There is really nothing we cannot take to God in prayer, and really nothing He doesn't know about. He will reveal in His time.... + I always tell myself, its God am serving and not man, so I should not bother what man may do or think of me, its what God thinks of me that is important. Linda please send a copy of this comment to Ese Walter, even if you are not going to post it. thanks

Anonymous said...

hmm well i think she really felt guilty about what she did ,but honestly she might not be able to handle the after effect . One thing is certain the Pastor was wrong for leading her in the wrong direction (if the story is 100% truth) and maybe should have taken some time off when the pressures started and spoken to other pastor friends, but i think she did what she did because she was hurt and felt the people (her church brethren)did not believe her side of the story and she had to clear/help herself and also help the Man in the Mirror by exposing him. But to be honest Else has mistakenly damaged more people by trying to save herself, but she had to do what she had to do to set herself free. I just Pray many won’t backslide who had put their trust in the Pastor , and that is why we say trust in the Lord with all your heart, but what can we say People make mistakes even men of God , DAVID sinned and the whole city of Israel heard about it and even up till today Davids sin is still in our faces when reading the Great Books. I have always wondered why it is easy for you and I to go to church and ask God to forgive us our sins and the evil we have done and when a pastor sins people feel they should be NO Mercy for him. Well God is the Judge- the first shall be the last and the last the first . Let’s have Mercy and remember the devil does not sleep but moves around looking for whom to destroy. I pray that God will Save us all from the deceitfulness of Sin. My word to Else you had already exposed it to the church why take it to the whole Nation , we wrestle not against flesh and blood. I pray the Holy Spirit helps you at this time and to many other ladies who feel i have to tell my story honestly God is the master Judge !!!!!! EVERYONE WILL BE JUDGED FOR THERE IS NOTHING HIDDEN UNDER THE SUN. Pastor it is better to know God and have a relationship with him at the end of time he would tell some i never knew you even if you did many miracles in His name . PASTORS KNOW GOD – FOR FAME IS LIKE A FLOWER THAT SHINES FOR A WHILE BUT FALLS AWAY AFTER A WHILE , KNOW GOD AND YOU SHALL BE STRONG!!!. JAMES WARD

Anonymous said...

Um Ugonma Orji! no one said anything about looking for a hot, miracle church so back off!!! if u haven't been to the church, then do not judge, cause honestly ur just making a fool outta urself and being really silly!!! I know in ur mediocre mind u think miracles are only when a man of God says something and it happens or when he touches a blind persons eyes, then the person sees, but its not. u can receive a miracle when u r connected to a church and u feel a great change in ur life for the better( now that's a miracle )so change ur puny mediocre mindset and be sure of what u say don't just assume!!! ..........

Rapearl said...

this story dosen't looks like fiction, its so hard to believe, Pst Biodun is one of a kind, may God give him wisdom to handle all this, May God also expose those who are lying, and for Ese, if your story is actually true, you should have asked God for direction and healing and not coming out to spoil his name, if he wasn't a man of such status, would you come out and say such things? would anybody listen to you? because of who he is and his position and influence, everyone has a mouth to talk, how about talking of all the sins other people have committed including the sins of those making comments? how about bringing out the skeletons in your own cupboard and leave the man of God alone? am not blaming you Ese, but you could have looked for other influential men of God to talk about your issues with, may God help us bring healing, my advice to everyone is that, lets pray for our leaders n pray for for those that have erred anot go about exposing them and telling false stories about them

Anonymous said...

I understand that Ese had a poor Christian background, anybody who is brought up in a good Christiane foundation will surely see the temptation coming and by the grace and wisdom of God will overcome like Joseph. Two adults of opposite sex in one hotel room should have sent a signal to u. The pastor has been into such act and succeeds with ladies who are earthly minded, who want to be connected, have a good job and good relationship with there pastor and not with God. some of those pastors are not bone again, they have no conscience and have no fear of God. people should strive to know God, and worship God in a bible believing church, sometimes u may not see much members and probably few rich people there,but remember that sorrow may be throughout the night but joy cones in the morning, forget about those earthly thing and look unto God he is the author and the finisher of our faith through Christ JESUS. Back to the pastor involved in this shameful and deceitful act on poor minded members, listing u must confess to your wife, to the elders and workers of your church God will give u all the wisdom to go public about the matter, if u have a true man of God as a father in the lord expose all you evil act to him he will advice you on what to do for your soul to be saved, pastor u may deceive your family and the world but what about the consuming fire, the lord God almighty, amend your life now.

Anonymous said...

I salute this young woman's courage. it takes guts to own up to something like this. it is a lesson to those who idolise their pastors.
And for the person that thought Ese is a hypocrite, cheap slut and unworthy of the lowest man in the workforce. I am sorry for you. I'm sure you are a man. One of those men that still live in the dark, oh so dark ages where you think every thing a woman does and lives for is for the benefit of men. A woman like Ese does not need to be approved by the 'lowest man in the workforce'. She has the guts to live without it, so you can go to hell with the harsh judgements you have come up with in your ignorance.
To you, i guess the man is justified, after all he is a man abi? *smh*
Ese, I salute your courage

Anonymous said...

Ese in retrospect i want u to always remember dis;
the elements of this sin are as follows 1. Will 2. Full consent 3. Grave matter... i am sure u didnt realise d enormity of ur actions, but u willed it and consented to it. i am glad u have a closure to this but u really have caused more harm dan good. u attempted to save urself and in so doing threw the house of God in turmoil. like the first sin, this too has consequences.

i dont intend to be judgemental my dear sister but i need u to help me understand why you thot publishing this confession will bring u a total closure.

as i read through your article, i cldnt help but understand that the writer(if indeed it is u) isnt a Christian like u claim. ur language doesn't depict someone who is in communion with Christ. it is indeed appalling that in all ur search for salvation words like this will still be in ur diction or subconscious.

besides it doesn't seem to me that you have been abused in any way. what u perceive to be abuse is sheer JEALOUSY, which is very natural to any woman who has lost something or someone she holds dear. u thot u were the "SPECIAL CHOSEN ONE", "DADDY'S BABY" and when u realised u were statistics u couldnt take it. u spoke to him and he called ur bluff, u spoke to his elders and they covered up, ur anger and malicious heart was inflamed! I make it bold to u my dear sister that a forgiven heart and a repented spirit doesn't seek vengeance. u came here to spite the man u fell in love with (by omission or commission). who wouldn't love a handsome, successful, powerful, great, influential man like this. and to ur greatest surprise the object of ur fantasy was now seeing u in a different light. dats when u got excited and opened ur arms and ur legs.

at wat point did u feel u were manipulated? cos if u were a victim, u will flee after the first orgasm. if u were indeed euphoric atleast the morning should bring clarity. but u did not. u stayed for "a bit over a week". ( his wife was calling, church members were calling, family and friends were calling) in all this u didnt feel bad. u stayed on to enjoy ur new found love.

when u got back, u noticed his hypocrisy and the fact that u were not the only one. so u took it upon urself to teach him a lesson cos u dont need his money and you have protection. he cant touch u. besides u have other documentation to bring him lower that u have already done. awesome!

my question now is this... TO WHAT END?

u smoke and u drink, u had and u have boyfriends, why pick out and try to ruin an anointed man? ur story is swinging towards u being the victim but i read in between the lines and i see MALICE and SCORN and DESPAIR. My sister u had 5 instances from ur story to flee. and in real life it could be as much as 20. but u didnt, i were in awe, "unbelievable my leader wants me", omg look at who is calling me! at wat point did u not see all these coming my dear sister?

let me cap it all up by telling u to please as a christian which u claim to be, ask God to forgive u for the first sin and for trying to put the house of God in disarray.
i am not a member of any pentecostal church and i will not speak about ur pastor, i will only pray for u cos i can only imagine what u have been through since u took out time to act so scornfully. and yes this is nigeria so it will also be a miracle to find a man of ur dreams on this shores. my best bet is for u to make peace with your God and flee to Togo!

Anonymous said...

@ I like wt u said:Is this lady serious? How did he Abuse her for Christ sake. This lady is not in the work force of Coza or has ever been. Secondly check out her face book site, she has never poster any of the numerous activities of Coza on her site. May God punish her for her lies and expose her in the most disgraceful manner ever.wt I ve to say is dt workforce has a record of both new comers nd old ones,and pple shld nt jst judge bt hear frm d both side of evrything,she claims she has evidence then make ur proof b4 throwin allegation on pple.hw can sm1 jst say smthg abt sm1 witout no proof dt person is playin wit fire,she on her own allowered her to be lured by money nd wen she came bak to naija suddenly became guilty like serzly.@the victim an advice tink b4 u act.

Anonymous said...

My comment to all this really if it true or not leave all aligations to God to handle truely Touch Not His Annointing is a command from God its only God Ese and The pastor that know the truth

God shall surely exposed the truth very soon
God bless you sister ese walters take hearth move on and don't let this issue drive you away from God and His Glory

Satan will use this to derail you from Gods Kingdom so take hearth move on and make Heaven
Shallom

Anonymous said...

Sounds like the Spirit of Delilah!

Anonymous said...

To all the holier than thou LIBers, the scriptures say Let him that thinketh he stand take heed, lest he falls. A pastor is first a man, before he is a man of God.Everyone has a frailty. However, let us all know that someday we shall stand before the Lord to give an account of our stewardship on earth and not take the grace of God in vain nor use it as an occassion for sin. To Ese, well done. Please keep the faith. Give no room to the devil. Your faith in Christ is important. No one will be excused from hell to heaven because they had a horrible experience with a pastor. Do despise the shame and remain strong with the Lord, your past irrespective. Sooner than later, He who shall come will come and not tarry. Also, Proverbs 27:1 says let no man boast of tomorrow for no one knows what the next day may bring forth. My advise to all will be from 2Tim 2:19, 'The foundation of God standeth sure, having this seal, that the Lord knoweth those who are His and let him that nameth the name of Christ depart from iniquity'. I am a Christian and I believe in the God of second chance for all parties involved. Everyone should return to the Lord, even stronger than ever and put the enemy of our souls, the devil to shame.

Anonymous said...

I have been a christian all of my life but I never really knew God for myself till I joined Christ Embassy (no apologies for that). Now, in my short time of fellowship with God's word(the scriptures) and other believers, I have come to observe that there is a language that committed Christians use. I don't mean tongues or that they speak french, but there's just something in the way they communicate that connects with another person of the same spirit. It may sound esoteric to you but its so true. From Ese's story, her christianity is in serious doubt and I daresay, her mental status. I can tell from her words. That girl no know God! If she was really attending the church, Im sure, it was not consistently and was not with good intentions.As to whether the story is true, i doubt it but...i leave am for God.

Ossy said...

This is increasingly becoming common in our churches today, nobody should be covering up such evil acts. This is not the commission Christ gave us.
It reminds me so much of what happened to a dear lady friend of mine by a sub-pastor of one of the largest church in Nigeria.
If you really love Christ then be open minded about this stories, its not a church thing because church does not save. Instead we should all collectively pray for our ministers. Reading her story i believe she is 100% on point. And my final submission is that Christians should be prayerful and watchful. This is end times and we have not heard nothing yet and no church is exempted. You can only vouch for yourself.

Ronke said...

So sorry about this Ese! May our Lord the balm in Gilead himself heal inside out in Jesus name, comfort you on every side and cause this mess to be used for a glorious message. Remain strong in the Lord and please find comfort in reading the word of God.

susan said...

i really dont care if the story is true or not, she is too little to cause such huge confusion. she should have just reported him to his wife. if i was pastor biodun’s wife, i will find this life destroying bitch and give her a hot slap. if you are that intelligent to creat blog and tell such pathetic story, you should have been intelligent to keep your legs close. after sleeping with a married man and breaking his wife’s heart, you have the gut to make people feel you are the victim. bitch! you are a whore and life destroyer, this pastor i dont know him and honestly i dont give a hoot about him but i know he is an inspiration to alot of people, he has family and he has a life. u dont go about destroying what people worked hard to build, you are so darn evil. dont even get it twisted, im not religious, im here to say ESE WALTER is a WHORE and LIFE wrecking slot..

Anonymous said...

Thank you so much, I have been in the same situation. Let's just pray for the Pastors. Pastors wives, wake up, pray for your husbands. To marry a Pastor does not mean you are in heaven already. They are human beings. Some of the Pastors fall because no one is helping them with prayer instead wives are not satisfied because of their calling.

Anonymous said...

I do admire your courage and acknowledge the not too pleasant emotional experience of the actors here. But sometimes i seat down and shudder how christians make themselves available to Satan to fight the church of God. Was Pastor Biodun right to behave in this manner? NO. But if the souls of men Jesus died for matter to us at all, then many people that would likely be distraught, disappointed, backslide and even hate God should have been paramount to all. I cannot understand how someone who had a voluntary sex with another only to turn around to make so many souls abandon their faith just for the reason that they felt used and dumped. I think we should be careful and be more circumspect about the souls Jesus died for. Why was God ready to punish Abimalek(?) who attempted to have Sarah, Abraham's wife? Was it his fault? Didnt Abraham lied about her? I think Ese should have handled this wrong done to her in another way for sake of the souls Jesus died for. Linda and Ese pleeassse dont let Satan use you to kill a vision upon which so many souls are connected. You both can handle Pst Biodun for his carelessness but refused to let Satan use you to laugh at the demise of so geat a vision. Refuse to be part of it no matter the hurt. For the sake of the name of christ in Abuja i beg you both.

Anonymous said...

Wondering wat u wrote that got deleted. Lol

Unknown said...

Exactly! Well said but will only happen if he has truly repented and acknowledged he has been commiting the sin of adultery,humble himself and cry to God then go for deliverance sessions if not that he'll start quoting bible passages to cover up his sinful acts. May God deliver us all from this so-called end time men of God and we too shine our eyes well,study our bibles,know the word and pray without ceasing cos the end is sitting next to us but some of us are so blind to see it.

Butterflyninja said...

I am so sorry for female victims like this and she is a victim. We are all human, all humans make mistakes. Where are the Christians really? Where were we to hug this woman and help her through? No Christian should outcast any person at all, but we do and could anyone imagine how many other women this married man molested? He is a false profit, any man who so much as looks with lust should gouge his own eye out. I'm sorry she wasn't prepared to deal with men who have some ego entitled bs but woman should stick together because we are the ones frequently attacked by evil men. Doubt is the father of discovery. I don't believe in all the Bible because I'm a self respecting woman, but girl do make your living room your church. We don't need any man to speak to God we have all got a direct line. Get this I love you, I love you and cry for you, I don't judge you for you are imperfectly perfect to me. You have made things right in your heart for simply talking directly to God on your time and that's a relationship I believe is personal. Remember this when you're on the right path evil will attack you more but there is a light and people like me will have your back. A pastor hit on me too before and I quoted Matthew chapter 5 verse 29. Stay strong

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Wordsmith said...

Deeper life is the church to be lol

Anonymous said...

Your pant miraculously jumped from your waist abi? It takes two to tango my dear. Attraction is not restricted to non pastors.

Anonymous said...

I JUST STUMBLE ON THIS NOW. I'M NOT HERE TO JUDGE BUT TO CLEAR SOMETHINGS AND HELP OTHERS ESPECIALLY LADIES. ONE WAY TO LIVE A GREAT LIFE IS TO UNDERSTAND D WAY GOD CREATED US.FACT #1: EVERY NORMAL HUMAN BEING HAS A DIVINE DESIRED FOR SEX. FACT #2: GOD CREATED MAN(MALE) TO BE AROUSED SEXUALLY BY SIGHT PRIMARILY. FACT #2: THESAME GOD CREATED WOMEN (FEMALE) TO BE AROUSED SEXUALLY BY WORDS AND TOUCH PRIMARILY. I DON'T KNOW WHY SO MANY PEOPLE STILL DON'T REALIZE THAT "RUNNING" IS THE ONLY ANTIDOTE TO SEXUAL SIN. I WISH LADIES WILL PROGRAM THEIR MINDS B/4 D-DAY. I'M TALKING TO LADIES 'COS IF LADIES UNDERSTAND WHY THEY EASILY FALL INTO SEXUAL SIN WITH THE MOST UNLIKELY PERSON -MARRIED MEN- THEN THEY WOULD NOT. WORDS AND TOUCH. THOSE TWO THINGS ARE AS POWERFUL ON WOMEN AS NUDE PICTURES ARE ON MEN. SO IF U DON'T WANT TO BE A VICTIM OF UNWANTED CONSENSUAL SEX FOLLOW THESE SIMPLE RULES I'VE FOLLOWED SINCE I READ THEM WHILE I WAS IN JUNIOR CLASS ONE.RULE #1. SEX DOESN'T HAPPEN IN THE OPEN. SO, NEVER BE IN A SECLUDED PLACE WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX.IT DOESN'T MATTER WHO THE PERSON IS, UR BOSS/PASTOR/DAD. RULE #2. LEARN TO TALK TO AND OBEY YOURSELF. RULE #3. IF U FIND
YOURSELF IN AN UNPLEASANT SITUATION LIKE ESE, RUN. DON'T EVEN THINK U CAN MANAGE THE SITUATION. LISTEN TO THE WORD OF PAUL THE APOSTLE, HE SAID "RUN FROM SEXUAL SIN". THAT'S THE ONLY SIN THE BIBLE SAYS RUN. RUN AS SOMEONE BEING CHASED BY A LIONESS NOT PASSIVE RUN AS USED IN SOME OTHER PARTS OF THE BIBLE. RUN LIKE JOSEPH. JUST RUN. IN ORDER FOR THIS TO BE EASY, MEDITATE ON THIS WORD (RUN) BEFORE THE D-DAY.

Anonymous said...

Ewoo! How did I miss this one?

First and foremost, you're a darn good writer, gurl. Your story flows, your spelling and grammar are on point (except for where you write 'path' for 'part' three times lol)and you engage your the reader, taking them on a journey. If whatever you do as your day job doesn't pan out, strongly consider writing full time.

Secondly, okay, never heard of this COZA place but I'm googling like crazy now :-), and of course, never heard of you, but this story i.e. the facts of the matter strike me as true.

However, babe, you're not really a victim. You had several opportunities not to get involved - why didn't you ask your friend that warned you against joining the workforce, 'and why not?' Why did you sit on his lap? Why did you kiss him?(bear in mind this was in London - all you needed to do was yell if he tried to grab you and he'd be nicked in no time. After day one of rolling in the sheets, what sent you there on days 2, 3, 4,....etc? I'm assuming you had to get out of bed,perhaps pray, get showered and dressed, look yourself in the mirror, get yur hadbag and your coat, enter tube or bus....and go meet your lover. You were not manipulated. What could he have done if you decided not to come after the first time and not to pick his calls? He could hardly have told anyone?

To those of you asking her WHY she is telling her story and what she aims to get out of it, e concern you? Are you the pastor's wife or her family members? mtcheeew! She is telling the story because she can and according to her, it happened. That's enough reason. If it happened, well then it can be revealed to anyone that cares. That will probably teach some of these men to zip it in their pants [or not]. And she says it lifted a burden off her - not sure I totally agree with that but whatever.

Anonymous said...

I dont blame her its not her fault she didnt beg you to read her blog so wat wit d folish talk

Kiwi Viet said...

Quite shocking. He had no licence for preaching scripture, which belongs to the one holy catholic church. As for Ese, Ignorance is not a defence, you lack morals... and you are not a victim. He saw the weakness in a girl with lax morals and exploited you. And I guess you went along... for pride, lust and greed.

Anonymous said...

Waiting to hear from the pastor tho..stoped reading the story the point were shez confused if Jesus saves im confused did Jesus ever pay 4 ur transport fair to his hotel or na jesus hook Una up!! Sista pls dnt blame jesus because u weren't able to resist temptation....Jesus was also tempted while on earth so pls mind yasef!!

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Very gullible gurl even with all the signs and you come give us some cock and bull story - not that I do not believe the story but she wanted a good f**k and she got it!! Beware of indecent pastors and run if you are sincere once you get 3 or more signs. Idiot you dey complain, una won make God come down from Heaven. Oloshi!!

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Anonymous said...

Dear Ese ,I share in your pains.I pray that may the balm of gilead flows through you and heal your broken heart.I also experienced something similar from a deacon in a believing church.but you know what the pastors did,they accused me of seducing the man and was suspended..my heart was scattered cause it was my first time to encountered such shameful act..but here i am standing..really people will always have different opinion about this.For you to shunned all criticisms and make an ope confession i commend you but this alone cant heal you..you ve got to open up to GOD and sincerely seek his divine visitation.Also try read WOMAN THOU ARE LOOSED BY T.D JAKES,It was one of the material i read when i was abused.your are safe in his grips!!

Anonymous said...

Men of God are guys too. Free them. Lady whether you believe in God or not, He exists. You should ask for forgiveness, forgive the man and move on with your life. You have many amazing things ahead of you and this is only bringing you back

sparrow said...

Only God can say,bt ese r u dat naive dt even d devil frm d pit of hell can use bible portion to mislead u?

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Unknown said...

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Unknown said...

Well, I just got a chance to read this story and I wonder if I was existing in 2013..lol. For all who judged Ese, I pray you don't fall in her shoes of mental torture (I have been there before) and the only thing she needed was just a word of encouragement. For those who judged Pastor Biodun,you should probably know that even before he had that shortcoming, God forgave him already. Nobody is perfect, i think you should be grateful to God it was not your name that was mentioned, it could have been anyone. Our men of God are flesh and blood too and they face more temptation that what we do, yielding to it is what is called SIN, and these SINS have been paid for! All they need from us is our prayers.Prayers of strength and exceeding grace. And for those who think a pastor can't do this, welcome to the real world, its like you have lived in fantasy all your life. May God help us all.

Anonymous said...

Thank you. Your response is the best so far.

Anonymous said...

Pastors/Priests are not perfect. Follow them ONLy as they follow God. My opinion is that Church leadership is extremely sensitive. I you have a moral problem, step away from the pulpit till it is dealt with by God rather than destroy the souls of men.

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