The last time I felt this kind of grief was when my father died.
It makes my body numb. I can't do anything. Tears just sprout from my eyes without warning. I could barely sleep last night. I can only wait for this wave of depression to pass.
What breaks my heart most is the shift that has happened in my depths. I have changed in a way I can't delude myself is good. I can't even be angry.
I just feel dehumanised because I know by tomorrow I would have pushed these thoughts away and gone on visiting clients, gone outing with my child or a friend, done some hapharzard writing, worrying about my business and personal problems - worrying sbout my recalcitrant debtors, my legal issues.....anything. Something.
I would just go on.
This is not right.
Why doesn't life stop for a day because children just like mine were murdered in their sleep?
Why does it seem as normal as any other death? Why don't I know their names?
Why won't the world stop? Why won't someone give the president an ultimatum to deliver these murderers up for justice or prepare to leave Aso Rock in 24 hours, just so the bushes in Yobe, Borno, Sokoto, Kano, and others are burned to the ground, every house turned inside out, so that there is no hiding place for every last one of these breathing blobs of depravity?
Why is this being treated as custom? Why is the news about the president "condemning" this as "heinous" and all such customary trash?
Why are the TV and radio programmes going on as usual? Why does anyone talk about football, music, Tiwa Savage, Jonathan, $20m, Sanusi, APC or PDP at this time??
Why doesn't the world stop for a minute at this outrage?? Why ?
I need to talk to a therapist. I don't care. I'll send my child to go play with my friends' holidaying kids for the day. I'll go to the clinic and claim any discomfort, so they give me a bed for the day to rest. I hope nobody speaks to me. I hope the doctor doesn't ask me too many questions. I have no plausible explanation for the way I feel. Maybe it's not even about the dead children. I'm just exhausted.
I must really be a sociopath at least...I'm worrying that my punctuations are as askew as usual; that I am a disgrace to the art of editing; that my liberal use of ellipses are begining to annoy even me...that my writing at this time is the final proof of my acute narcissism...that I should care that I might not have spelt even that word right, and that my seeming nonchalance should do as a personal protest against Right.
I will drink black coffee. No demerara sugar. Just black. Hot. I will make faces at myself in the mirror as I drink it. I will make a decision to not log into facebook for the rest of the day. I will switch off my phones, and tomorrow call everyone on my social list to tell them I was on bedrest so that they worry...and then promptly forget as we delve into quotidian-ese.
I won't do the usual today. I won't say the usual. I won't speak utter abominable words like "Rest in peace, little angels". I refuse to inter these unfortunate children in such aloof mental graves. Their deaths were too gruesome for any peaceful conclusion. Let chaos remain. Let us not insult their memory any further. They were innocent. We shouldn't rest. We shouldn't be permitted to feel good with ourselves on their misfortune in any way.
And my dear,life goes on.we have become so lost in ourselves that we move on from this types of dastardly acts.after all they are just northern kids.sad.so sad.
Love d interview. I think I really like Waje, she is down to earth, n I like the fact that she has a well structured boobs, with a temptating cleavage. As 4 Toke I reserve my comment, I love Oreka, she talks really well n knows when 2 chip in one or two nice jokes, as 4 Tosyn, she is ok, but that cat suit looks like what she got from aswani, wether it's a body type, I don't, lol. All in all, I like.
If u no cm like nko with all the abuses.waje and oreka I like.tosyn quit behaving like an ogbanje and comport yourself.toke please let your guests speak.we already follow your vlog.we don't need your facial expressions here too.thank you
Has Toke actually ever stepped out of this country? Her accent is so fake and put on and who does she think she is sef. Fake from head to toe, nothing real about her from her accent to hair! Oreka comes across more natural, love everything about her. Tosyn - I dont even know what to say walai!
IS IT JUST ME.? WHY ARE THEIR VOICES ALL OVER THE PLACE LIKE EVERYONE ONE OF DEM THREE LIVE CHICKENS WANTS TO CROW. HABA.... They are bumping into each other like they don't know what to say and when to say. It's irritating actually. WAJE I LOVE YOU. YOU KEPT YOUR COOL AND ALLOWED DEM THREE CHICKENS TO KEEP CROWING.
3livechicks... The thing sound like 3livechicken.... Lol.... And why is it that they only interview ladies.....???
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Deletequite entertaining,i dont know what u haters watched
DeleteWhen is 3livecocks be establish or brought to light....
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That's cool #bright bravo#
ReplyDeleteLinda, my birthday is coming soon. I'm praying for a miracle, join me in prayers? Thanks.
ReplyDeleteWaje, my love! I see you oh!
ReplyDeleteLindodo, dis ur head line is somehow funny. ⌣̊┈̥-̶̯͡»̶̥♡thanks ⌣̊┈̥-̶̯͡»̶̥
ReplyDeleteTemidayo Ahanmisi wrote:
ReplyDeleteThe last time I felt this kind of grief was when my father died.
It makes my body numb. I can't do anything. Tears just sprout from my eyes without warning. I could barely sleep last night. I can only wait for this wave of depression to pass.
What breaks my heart most is the shift that has happened in my depths. I have changed in a way I can't delude myself is good. I can't even be angry.
I just feel dehumanised because I know by tomorrow I would have pushed these thoughts away and gone on visiting clients, gone outing with my child or a friend, done some hapharzard writing, worrying about my business and personal problems - worrying sbout my recalcitrant debtors, my legal issues.....anything. Something.
I would just go on.
This is not right.
Why doesn't life stop for a day because children just like mine were murdered in their sleep?
Why does it seem as normal as any other death? Why don't I know their names?
Why won't the world stop? Why won't someone give the president an ultimatum to deliver these murderers up for justice or prepare to leave Aso Rock in 24 hours, just so the bushes in Yobe, Borno, Sokoto, Kano, and others are burned to the ground, every house turned inside out, so that there is no hiding place for every last one of these breathing blobs of depravity?
Why is this being treated as custom? Why is the news about the president "condemning" this as "heinous" and all such customary trash?
Why are the TV and radio programmes going on as usual? Why does anyone talk about football, music, Tiwa Savage, Jonathan, $20m, Sanusi, APC or PDP at this time??
Why doesn't the world stop for a minute at this outrage?? Why ?
I need to talk to a therapist. I don't care. I'll send my child to go play with my friends' holidaying kids for the day. I'll go to the clinic and claim any discomfort, so they give me a bed for the day to rest.
I hope nobody speaks to me. I hope the doctor doesn't ask me too many questions. I have no plausible explanation for the way I feel. Maybe it's not even about the dead children.
I'm just exhausted.
I must really be a sociopath at least...I'm worrying that my punctuations are as askew as usual; that I am a disgrace to the art of editing; that my liberal use of ellipses are begining to annoy even me...that my writing at this time is the final proof of my acute narcissism...that I should care that I might not have spelt even that word right, and that my seeming nonchalance should do as a personal protest against Right.
I will drink black coffee. No demerara sugar. Just black. Hot. I will make faces at myself in the mirror as I drink it. I will make a decision to not log into facebook for the rest of the day. I will switch off my phones, and tomorrow call everyone on my social list to tell them I was on bedrest so that they worry...and then promptly forget as we delve into quotidian-ese.
I won't do the usual today. I won't say the usual. I won't speak utter abominable words like "Rest in peace, little angels". I refuse to inter these unfortunate children in such aloof mental graves. Their deaths were too gruesome for any peaceful conclusion. Let chaos remain. Let us not insult their memory any further. They were innocent. We shouldn't rest.
We shouldn't be permitted to feel good with ourselves on their misfortune in any way.
And my dear,life goes on.we have become so lost in ourselves that we move on from this types of dastardly acts.after all they are just northern kids.sad.so sad.
DeleteLove d interview. I think I really like Waje, she is down to earth, n I like the fact that she has a well structured boobs, with a temptating cleavage. As 4 Toke I reserve my comment, I love Oreka, she talks really well n knows when 2 chip in one or two nice jokes, as 4 Tosyn, she is ok, but that cat suit looks like what she got from aswani, wether it's a body type, I don't, lol. All in all, I like.
ReplyDeleteIf u no cm like nko with all the abuses.waje and oreka I like.tosyn quit behaving like an ogbanje and comport yourself.toke please let your guests speak.we already follow your vlog.we don't need your facial expressions here too.thank you
DeleteThe year ιƨ fast running, what's our highlight so far?
ReplyDeletelinda pls wat abt 3livedogs when ar they going to interview
ReplyDelete25 minutes? what bloody rubbish! what happened to keeping it short but lively, is it a movie? mschew...aint nobody gat time for this.
ReplyDeleteWhere is my brush Abeg I don late for work make I brush teeth joooor
ReplyDeleteThe name though. 3 live chicks
ReplyDeleteWaje was fun, enjoyed her interview.
ReplyDeletebunch of noise makers ..... linda continue licking their ass , lets know when u r done
ReplyDeletesomebody should pls help me slap tokes too too fake mehnnn
ReplyDeleteHas Toke actually ever stepped out of this country? Her accent is so fake and put on and who does she think she is sef. Fake from head to toe, nothing real about her from her accent to hair! Oreka comes across more natural, love everything about her. Tosyn - I dont even know what to say walai!
ReplyDeleteI like the part were Waje hushed Toke. Jeez Toke, this interview is not about you
ReplyDeleteToke.. as fake as usual always #throwsup
ReplyDeletei love the intervirw,waje was wonderful....luv ur way waje
ReplyDeleteWow this is really cool....gives more room to see waje's playful side....u try ma babe
ReplyDeletewaje is a natural....i just love everything abt her
ReplyDeletethis toke girl does not know wen to stop...mschewwwww
ReplyDeletewaje no go kill me....personally i tink waje totally killed it....u tooooooo much my babe
ReplyDeleteWaje always dishes out somthing new every time....I dey bow waje
ReplyDeleteU CAN JUST TELL THAT WAJE IS ALWAYS HERSELF,I LOVE THE WAY SHE CARRIES HERSELF....FOR ME ...SHE AIN'T FAKE LIKE TOKE....
ReplyDeleteI love waje.
ReplyDeletemehn this tosyn gir is tooo extra. lova waje tho
ReplyDeleteWaje my sister
ReplyDeletelmao "toke ds is about me not u" nice one. sm needs to let her knw. lmaoo
ReplyDeleteIS IT JUST ME.? WHY ARE THEIR VOICES ALL OVER THE PLACE LIKE EVERYONE ONE OF DEM THREE LIVE CHICKENS WANTS TO CROW. HABA.... They are bumping into each other like they don't know what to say and when to say. It's irritating actually. WAJE I LOVE YOU. YOU KEPT YOUR COOL AND ALLOWED DEM THREE CHICKENS TO KEEP CROWING.
ReplyDeleteNice! NEKINYMOUS
ReplyDeleteNice!NEKYNYMOUS
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